November 9th, 2020
That's the last time I wrote a new blog post for the website. December 1st, 2020 is the last time I sent out a newsletter and it was to promote Game Night (Click here for tomorrow's link).
Why?
Because generally speaking I am a positive, optimistic, glass half full kind of girl, but I was not exempt from the dumpster fire that was 2020.
Guys, Believers, it really started to get to me. The election, social injustices, unemployment/financial instability, the holidays, the pandemic, all of it just got to me too much.
So I dipped - which is NYC slang for I left.
I deleted my social media accounts, I kept the website up, but I effectively disappeared from the world.
The one thing I do regret, is I was so wrapped up in my little bubble that I forgot that God hadn't actually forgot about me.
I kind of got stuck in my "woe is me moment", because I didn't actually ask for help.
Not from my family, my friends, or my God and that left me feeling more lonely that ever.
The truth is, sometimes you can know all of the scriptures, know what the right words are to pray, know who has the right connections, but forget to act on what you know. Worse yet, you can be so consumed by what's immediately in front of you that you forget to pull from what's always been inside of you.
"Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world."
-1 John 4:4
As long as I have God I will always have what I need to thrive, not survive, not get by, but exceed any expectation set before me.
Gratefully, God has implanted me in a community of people that love me, and wouldn't let me drown in myself. They were able to remind me that love and good and kindness exist because they exist. Through their presence, prayers, and check-ins I was able to slowly come back to myself. I was able to slowly remember:
I am not alone.
There is good in this world.
There is good to be done.
And it's not too late for me to be apart of that.
So, you can expect these weekly blogs to be in your emails again and I look forward to continuing to explore faith and life with you.
Most of all I pray to continue to build and expand this community so that any one who needs to be reminded can know that they are never alone.