Updated: Apr 16
I felt ugly for most of my life.
And I fell in love with a boy who let me love him until it was inconvenient for him.
I thought I evolved past caring about any of that and grabbed onto the confidence and independence granted by finding my sexuality,
but I really just perfected the art of masking my insecurities
I love God with all my heart.
My best days are bookended by time spent in His presence.
I am most fulfilled when I am teaching God's Word and helping others to find the same peace, love, and hope that I find in Christ.
Sometimes when I pray,
I feel Heaven on Earth.
Sometimes when I pray,
I feel like my words are bouncing off the ceiling.
All the time when I pray,
I know that God hears me.
All of the scriptures that I know by heart, I learned in middle school.
I struggle to memorize anything, let alone scriptures now.
I am good in a crowd. I know how to work a room. I'm really good at being loud without being intimidating.
I love to help others feel comfortable in new environments.
I like to be left alone.
I've only made about five new friends since college and I struggle to maintain connections with the people I've met along the way.
I quit my job in a highly emotional state and God didn't let me starve or become homeless.
I call myself a "Christian LifeStyle Blogger", but I don't care to share my life with the strangers on the internet.
I am perpetually frustrated with the ways that Christians are portrayed in mass media mostly because - them are not my people.
I love meeting new people and the immediate kinship formed when meeting a believer in an unexpected place.
I drink. I try not to get drunk (except when I feel like getting drunk). I do attempt a twerk from time to time, but I will never post any of those things on my social media because I don't believe it edifies God.
I believe that there are enough mixed messages about what holiness looks like and while I'm all for healthy conversation, I would rather not be used as fodder against Christ.
I believe that God is everything He says He is
and I can always feel the distance I place between us when I sin
If you believe that Jesus Christ is God the Father come down from Heaven and died on the cross to pay the price for all our sins, if you love God and desire to serve Him to the best of your understanding and ability, then
You are my people
Every blog I write, every Instagram caption, every tweet, every Facebook status is so that we can find each other.
It's so that we can know that in Christ we never stand alone.
That when you read Romans 8:38-39 that says nothing will separate you from God's love, you know it’s true - even when you don't feel like someone God would love.
Each day new mercies we seek (Lamentations 3:22-23) and none of this is to justify the frustration of grace (Galatians 2:21).
This is just a reminder that none of us are perfect and that there is strength and community in all of these truths.
Romans 8:38 For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,
Romans 8:39 Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Lamentations 3:22 It is of the Lord's mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not.
Lamentations 3:23 They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness.
* Galatians 2:17 But if, while we seek to be justified by Christ, we ourselves also are found sinners, is therefore Christ the minister of sin? God forbid. *
Galatians 2:21 I do not frustrate the grace of God: for if righteousness come by the law, then Christ is dead in vain.